Forced to Self-Harm for Basic Services
Let me begin by writing how it makes me very uncomfortable placing myself into the role of victim here. But what causes me much more discomfort is entertaining any idea of expressing apathy towards this situation of obvious sociopaths given free rein to live out all of their sickening fantasies inside of prison walls. Which is in turn worsening the lives of all outside of them! September 1st, 2017, I was injected against my will with methamphetamine by other prisoners with the intent to kill me. My claim and condition were ignored by G.D.C. staff and I spent the following 3 months mocked, tortured, and abused before placed on the mental heath caseload, then transferred to another prison. Even though I’d been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder a month prior to my arrest.
I don’t believe it a coincidence how I was placed into the veterans dorm along with the head of the Aryan Brotherhood, who transferred there two days before me, being how I was labeled as an anarchist, anti-fascist, when passing through the diagnostic prison. I spent the next couple of months on alert and paranoid (or aware) before sent to segregation as punishment for having the audacity to exercise my First Amendment Right and criticize the judge who sentenced me to 5 years 11 months 20 days for my first ever shoplifting. The letter contained no threats or even profanity, however, an FBI investigation was launched and my mail confiscated and never returned.
A few months later, I expressed to a psychiatrist my fear I’m becoming homicidal due to placement into a kill or be killed environment and sent back into segregation. While awaiting a cell, I was put into a small and filthy shower stall and left for hours. Frustrated, I kicked open a stall door in view of the yearly audit inspectors who were present costing the prison a large sum of cash in safety fines. For this I was taken outside and left without food and water until escorted to medical after self-mutilating, and treated for dehydration, or “extreme thirst” as it is documented!
The following month I was transferred to my current location, a horrific and corrupt prison. Since arriving, I’ve been put into the position of having to choose between death or participation in a federal crime, something this facility is aware of and involved in. I had all of my personal belongings destroyed more than once. And on the one year anniversary of the failed murder attempt, prisoners were permitted to break free from the segregational cells and cover me with urine and feces several times. The cell only contained a non-functioning sink, so I again had to self-mutilate to shower. When word of this reached a psychologist, the prison went into an immediate institutional lockdown and inspectors arrived to begin writing fines. Afterwards, I was left without clothing, blankets or bed linens, hygiene care products, access to email or phones.
On November 8th, my mood stabilizer medication was discontinued without warning and the following day malicious and sadistic use of a chemical agent was used on me, resulting in a severe injury to my back, which was diagnosed with chronic pain a month prior to my arrest. December 12th I awoke to the overhead sprinklers covering me with black mold tainted water for no other purpose but to again destroy whatever personal property I’ve managed to re-accumulate. December 23rd I watched the prisoner who was housed in the neighboring cell be stabbed outside of my cell repeatedly. After which his condition was ignored by G.D.C. staff until he broke out of his cell once more to climb atop the “sally port” and attempt suicide by hanging himself. Only then was he transported to a hospital and given stitches and paperwork written concerning the stabbing.
In conclusion, this pattern of abuses I’ve suffered continues and seems to have come full circle involving another prisoner, and who knows how many others? I’ve documented each of these abuses through the Grievance Procedure Process, which has so far proved to be ineffective and fail to profile corrective action.
